13 THINGS

13 things that keep me up late at night:

1. I want to run but where do you go when you're escaping from no one but your own shadow?

2. YOU, the 30-page chapter in my 300-page novel is still the most beautiful romantic chapter but it is over.

3. My 3 am whiskey - it's a stormy sea that craves ginger tea.

4. Flaws, I have been taught, that anything vulnerable is not hot and the only F word I am scared of is fucking FLAWS.

5. My heart is a knife, I wonder if I am a body without a soul because it is so cold that anything inside me will freeze to death, I walk alone in the dark only to see that even my shadows have left me.

6. Exes and two friends are not supposed to kiss the same lips or be intimate with each other. We talked about this, but you lied daily, thinking I'd never find out about it.

7. I wrote poetry "If we ever have a conversation again...." but we never did.

8. The sweatshirt, that I borrowed pretending to be cold is still an untold story.

9. I pretended to be fine when I was actually Ross fine.

10. How your love consumed me from within or maybe my blood became so toxic that it was imbalanced without the toxicity.

11. How I professed to be calm when I am a hopeless romantic, I want a love like the '90s, no texts, love letters, please.

12. Questions, will I always sit alone watching sunrise and sunset dreaming to stay put and moving ahead?

13. Last, will I ever stop writing about love and start learning how to love? (me)